blame it on my playlist...

fuuuuuuuuck.... music took over my life. The urge to blog is totally dead. Ad be back soon though cosa got loads to pour out. TILL THEN...... BRAAAAAAP!

Des Cartes,Kant,comte............BS

Wonderin? i guess yes.bin on dis for months and its bin total BS.yea lyk ery1 likes to read(ooopps!!! i just heard a no......sorry i taught so).

So av bin reading about bunch of dead men(i got loads of respect for them though).they believd in this ENLIGHTENMENT thingy.emmmm it sorta like a movement kinda thing,it championed the power of human reasonin.nt reali sure how to put it buh its like the right of ery1(individuals) and a commitment to social progress.these guys proly taught they were throwin light into the gloom of a world that had been dominated by tradition,superstition,irrationality,religion and stufs.They blived in the power of the rationality of human mind to understand the world.

Enuf said.....i think science was the epitome of rationality cos it produced knowledge of d world that wasnt conditioned by superstitions nd al dat.They had confidence that humans wuld use the knowledge they had to transform the world for the better buh scientific knowledge wud giv ppl more power and control ova nature nd dis wud prolly be used to improve life.

so av had to learn all these junk nd i pray to God i dont flunk.i got loads of books pilled on ma chest....tel ma parents i did ma best.ma knees are deep in papers and i got loads of expectations.who do i look up to? i look up to MYSELF.sigh....................................................................................................am out yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Sleepy..................zzzzzz

Bin starin at the keys all day(for a yle......das wah i mean). am  in a rily dark place and all i can see is me.I taught i could do this wit eryone buh am all alone,the only one here wit me is the sound of the keys.i realy should have said NO cos eryone doesnt play fair.Now am gasping for air like have bin runnin all day......lyk i rily need to save me from maself.I cant take this anymore,erytime i try to get a hold i just feel its slipin away,its hurts really bad.I just pray it doesnt shatter cos its begginin to crack up.Am never gonna bow ma head in sadness,i would just keep my head up high  hoping somtin good comes outta it.Sometimes everyrthing just feels like the wrong thing to do and it just keeps slippin away like a fading memory.I cant explain this at all,i just keep breaking and i rily wanna take you apart.This feels  right buh its so wrong cos its an unfair war.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                  :i would let the lights go,zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.peace out.

my deep HEART.............bin gone for too long

Huge sigh......bin like forever tot i wud never do this again.Not like i have not attempted to return buh i cant even begin to understand.dunno why i waited until the last inning,i finally got thirsty nd i feel like havin a pool of water.It was a strange feeling buh i tot i was outta stock,taught they were ghost dwellin here.like there was a dark forest...... dark and deep.buh mehn here is wher ma heart lurks.there are some weird and odd looking people around here,they often cry and somtimes randomly lost .Ma taughts are small(shallow ohhh) and somtimes freakin big(deep),they somtimes are somthing you could neva dream.And somtimes they are like strange versions of me or even you(could be anyone).they somtimes are harmless nd othertimes they haunt ma dreams.ery of ma taughts has its own schemes nd personality(does that make sense? iono).i often taught ma degrees had bin flunked out or ma class was wel ova.buh no......i got it all ova d wall.                                                                                                               ma soul dwells deep,no wonder ma mind keeps yellin(this is nt me........bin away for so long).                                                                                                                                                                                   :aquaria,bee,gaga doll (tongues out!!!!!!!!)

emptiness.......................

am done wit ma transition.......u proly should read this:

confusion stricken heart

silence done an awful harm

moods no good

emptiness builds a home

hope and dreams..............fade away

prayer? seems futile

smiles far of the face

nothing worthy is left

life destined to be ordinary

destroyed and damaged

a void filled with torture

alone and disdained............................

a little girls looks tells me that i mite be a little lost,this never ending thingy depicts the illusion of myself.proly because i was awfully lonely today and i only look up to me.I really should join a game but they never really play fair.I warned them to stop looking because i had my back face them.Everytime am killed i get born again...

i listened to r.les transition album nd it wasnt such a bad idea.mr got poor sales(pity)......am outta here

they so fake

Hey,this is real serious.I really dont know who is for real......we really gotta to be careful about the ppl we call friends.They so many people who shows up in your face and act as friends,many of them just need you for a purpose.Words are said over the phone and are so easy to type buh friendship is a two way thing.Its deceit or the truth.

it happens all the time you meet ppl who seem so perfect.the ones that seem to be there all the time.they stick up there asses and would be there all the time (these people are friends right?).................or so they say.

its just a matter of time you find out they fake.they stick you up for your paper or what you have got to offer.they spread lies about you and say shitty things about you.they backstab nd try to bring you down.Then they try to turn some other mofos against you,those mutual friends that believe their lies are just more fake friends(loosers).these guys are no friends,they are people with boring lives.we living in a cruel world,apparently some ppl are real while some are fake.i guess we may never know who the true friends are

:once a friend always a friend(huge lie)............got so many kid brains in matured bodies.....sigh....peace out.

sugar bum

ur my honeyyum sugarbumm

cookie yummy pumpkin

ur my sweetypie

ur my honeycake gumdrop

sclupyscwuplydu

d apple of my eye

and i love u so

n i want u to know

that ill always be rite ere

and i luv to sing

this song to u

becos U ARE SO DEAR!!!

love u babyyy.mwahhh!

:one of ma very special friends sent me this.its kinda funny buh i really like it....i have ma version of this song though.21mmi5.