emptiness.......................

am done wit ma transition.......u proly should read this:

confusion stricken heart

silence done an awful harm

moods no good

emptiness builds a home

hope and dreams..............fade away

prayer? seems futile

smiles far of the face

nothing worthy is left

life destined to be ordinary

destroyed and damaged

a void filled with torture

alone and disdained............................

a little girls looks tells me that i mite be a little lost,this never ending thingy depicts the illusion of myself.proly because i was awfully lonely today and i only look up to me.I really should join a game but they never really play fair.I warned them to stop looking because i had my back face them.Everytime am killed i get born again...

i listened to r.les transition album nd it wasnt such a bad idea.mr got poor sales(pity)......am outta here

they so fake

Hey,this is real serious.I really dont know who is for real......we really gotta to be careful about the ppl we call friends.They so many people who shows up in your face and act as friends,many of them just need you for a purpose.Words are said over the phone and are so easy to type buh friendship is a two way thing.Its deceit or the truth.

it happens all the time you meet ppl who seem so perfect.the ones that seem to be there all the time.they stick up there asses and would be there all the time (these people are friends right?).................or so they say.

its just a matter of time you find out they fake.they stick you up for your paper or what you have got to offer.they spread lies about you and say shitty things about you.they backstab nd try to bring you down.Then they try to turn some other mofos against you,those mutual friends that believe their lies are just more fake friends(loosers).these guys are no friends,they are people with boring lives.we living in a cruel world,apparently some ppl are real while some are fake.i guess we may never know who the true friends are

:once a friend always a friend(huge lie)............got so many kid brains in matured bodies.....sigh....peace out.

sugar bum

ur my honeyyum sugarbumm

cookie yummy pumpkin

ur my sweetypie

ur my honeycake gumdrop

sclupyscwuplydu

d apple of my eye

and i love u so

n i want u to know

that ill always be rite ere

and i luv to sing

this song to u

becos U ARE SO DEAR!!!

love u babyyy.mwahhh!

:one of ma very special friends sent me this.its kinda funny buh i really like it....i have ma version of this song though.21mmi5.

Elergy to ATL Kunbi

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh........a moment of silence.I wander in search of him in my dreams.My heart was troubled and wondering if this is true.I thought it was a joke until i tried calling you some weeks after and i remembered you were gone,i laughed then i felt terribly sad.Then it hit me that i lost a friend...one dats so friendly.I hold my tears and my body feels unsafe in fears.The scenes from when you were buried reminded me of your brothers bravery and the tears of ur sister.Her words said it all and mourns from everywhere made me cold.Deaths so cruel,just after your eighteenth birthday.I dont think i can ever get over this.......anybody could die.As we walk into the cemetry,i stare at the plaques and they were mostly aged.I just feel you were too young to go...its so heartbreaking.You had your goals and death cut it short.I hope and pray God puts you in a better place.....i know God has reasons for everything.REST IN PEACE ATL Kunbi.

the GERIAN mind

we gotta go mehn....quit sleeping.another typical morning.i hate that our paths are similar and we have to ride together but anyways you doing more good than harm.am just an ungrateful lazy school boy.

i wonder through its every route turning my neck side to side.i hear laughter roar and tears flowing and hidden signs that i decode.i see signs of failure and woe.poor me....this is just the begginin of the long journey and am already moody and feeling sorry.

in every smile of every man and female's noble call....every view of every clan,the passion they show says it all.much awaited style of life is captured and invokes fear.Everyone's just roaming about with much regret...seriously if they could weep,their eyes will get wet.a Nigerian mind...peace out

Outta tune?

I really want everything to go my way......like am tired of this all.My adventures of yesterday and the natures i nurtured for years......they all lasted until today.

all the bulls..t chase of chick and praise showering shadowed by lust........all this are just phases of my phoney past.

am not outta tune nor was i grounded to a halt.i would rather be me on a level legline than the paris of troy that seeked the rage of archilles.Its bin good and whole lot of fun but then i think am tired.empty collage describes my frame of mind.peace out......little means more(dunno if dats true)

ghost of a second ........GOALIE

Its prep time.....and they all up tryna meet up.everyone running around and doubling up.Stressed out buh cant complain,out there trying to impress....the best gets a chance after the weeks hard work.The second goalie is about the best but deep down he knows his got no chance at the big day.He just keeps trying hoping he gets the big break some day...he gets encouraged by his trainee not to give up.This keeps him going buh deep down he still knows his got no hope.

Its the big day and everyone is optimistic and ready fo the action.Coach gives his words and everyone listens carefully.The second goalie is hoping he gets on the starting teams list buh na his just a second fiddle as usual.He changes into his all black strip like an old school boy,puts on his gloves(he never gets to use it) and heads down the tunnel.The fans are cheering and the game gets on...the second goalie his just a spectator throghout the game.The team does well,he doesnt get any praise because his got no contribution.The team does badly the teams gets a collective nagging and he shares part of it.

Its another game day and he doesnt still get on the list...but wait something different is gonna happen.The games on and the crowd are cheering....the opposing team has a better swagga and they seem to be in control.The home crowds silent and the pressure is mounting.The second goalie's not interested and decides to take a quick nap.The whistle goes after a quarter into the game...the first goalie is sent off and the second fiddle is called upon.He has bin dreaming of how he got the big chance.He gets on the pitch and this is the ultimate test(A SPOTKICK)......There stood a goalpost gapin wide nd in between his the second goalie.The fans got no hope buh to there dismay he does the impossible.Its halftime and he thinks his still sleeping.They back on the pitch and the fans are stunned....its all level and its about the last kick of the game.Its a corner and the trainee tells him to go have a nod.He gets on the end of the ball and the ball strolls into the net.Its the final whistle and the fans are chanting the second goalies name.

Many ppl ar probably second goalies waiting for a chance to blow.Never give up,ur gonna get your break soon.Keep the hustle on.....I wrote this for those guys who go through all the degrees and dont get a job.i just went about it in a different way.HONOUR DUTY COURAGE SACRIFICE.

sequel to...................................REQUEST

Have bin wondering y they just open their mouths nd say all this things.i neva get answers.....proly because the stuffs are just dumb and they wanna let out or they were never meant to be.BUH am sorry its just not right or rather its way out off line.i dont do girls,doesnt necessarily mean i dunno like any girl ...obviously i do.maybe cos i only like one girl in the world and she broke me into pieces buh i still like her nd no other girl.buh for fear of her doin same thing over again.i keep the secret to myself and tell evryone i dont do girls.

Dont u think u should date me cos your mom likes me nd am a potential wifey(i swear this girls a fool,i neva think of marriage(maybe 2017) nd i dont date ppll.i only dated once nd i dont think its cool for me...reason's that am too emotional nd i demand for too much.nd i neva forget a dates error,so am proly gonna bore u out reminding u off all the evil uv done.ok i dont talk to the girl dat said this anymore (no malice..am too cool for that).buh shes just plain stupid.

Lets play a love game.....guess i asked for it buh what rubbish.shes like 4 years older nd am in her world(in her mind).shes a nympho buh too bad my philosophy's against sexing am a sexist.... lmao .y would u wanna give yourself cheap .kkk she didnt say get me high.buh she implied it.i swear this girls really cool buh shes livin the life of a Looser.or maybe she didnt want to come out cheap so she had a price tag(a shoe).sigh......googoogaga.

dis not bout you.....am not sure,i think so.am just a child in a bigger way.peace...........

Wait a sec........SHE'S JUST A SEC

Its bin like forever buh its so good to be bac.Av bin on many p's and am just tryna get maself sorted.So am done wit all my little problems. Switchin to a nu school is as hard as switchin houses.so i officially switched lanes na (reasons....... MY BUSINESS).

So i did wit the help of one stupid organization nd trust me i had lots of problem wit them.Everytin av ever done in this world gets done by ppll around me me(ma mum nd big brother mostly)...i really hate goin to office desk,just to ask some stupid questions they feel u should know. Buh this time av bin on my own.Av had to face my problems myself.....non more mamas child,sillybaby's all grown up.so am ther first time...nd i ask this secretary the obvious.nd shes like DO WE DO ANYOTHER THING HERE.so am sayin in my mind BITCH,pls dont be like other secretaries.so am on nd on wit my q's.Nd she gives me dis long list of things to bring(dis means i av to visit several other places nd face other secretaries).anyways thank God i had most of the things she asked me to bring,except one.So am up early the next mornin nd prayin i dont meet another irritant,so am wher i need to get what the first secretary asked me to ........thank God shes all smily buh i couldnt be too sure.so i tell her what i need to get.nd she gives me this long form.am takin my time fillin the form nd she tells me my wristwatch matches my personality....so i ask her what that meant buh she couldnt come up wit a sensible answer.i av this fake smile on my face nd gave her the form.she reads it nd gave me wat i wanted.

So am on my way bac to the other sec.i gave her all what she asked nd she was still actin up.She tells me am fakin my age that am way younger.truly my speculations were right.... SHES A BITCH.am really tryna keep my cool buh shes just a mess.So we up on each others throat nd trust me shes really actin weird(maybe i had offended her before or shes just hatin for no reason).so am really pissed nd am off...now i need to bring my cert. to proove am 17 on18.so i rush home nd back(the person drivin me is getin pissed at me too).i face my fears again nd now she tells me they are closed that i need to come the next day........hate,curse,punch,slap,kick,hit(all this were runnin through my mind).y on earth would i do any of those.

hisSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSssss i never went bac,sombody did the rest of the thing i needed to do for me.i pray i neva see her again.som ppl ar just too weird to be true.....

hey,shut your trap....................BEAUTY dies

I just woke up this morning feelin its a necessity to do somtin productive......then i start doin the kidy tiny thoughts thingy(i mean am putin a finger at the side of my head ).Remembering ppl who just feel they too preety brings this little piece to my mind.....just the other day my silly friend said she could neva get ugly(i dunno how true that is).Not throwing shots at anyone....

One does not own beauty.

In their dreams,

They feel they can obtain it,

All alone, in a dark night,

All their thoughts.....lifeless

Cursed by change,

Hidden by lies,

Running from the truth,

Beauty now dies.

They don't understand,

They don't really care,

Beauty now burns,

Smoke's in the air,

Years go by,

And age sets in,

Beauty's worn out,

Life is giving in.

Death creeps up,

Beauty now cries,

Your all alone,

In your beautiful lies!

Pls.....beauty's from God.ya'll should pray today.dats wat am doin right now.

my dream dates..........for REAL

Emmmm,my fav. celebs.i could stay with ANNE HATHAWAYand watch her smile all day.
Angelina should just gimme a kiss on the cheek nd dat would be it for me.....or she should just adopt me......


Jessy marie alba..........she's just hot.From Dark angel,sin city,into the blue,f4 and goodluck chuck.

love gone......................................SOUR

i tot it was always gonna be like that,till we get married or somtin(just imagine me......thinkin of marriage at 17.it was just a match made from the heavens.I neva wanted to let go.....and fear of loosing her was just a major concern.i loved her so much nd her response couldnt av made me happier.We just had fun nd took it as it came.She told me she wouldnt leave me for no reason nd i was just so happy to hear that........buh before i knew it she was gone nd the the then love.................fast turnin hatred.

I met her just som yrs bac.....we became frnds like it was just a choice.we neva really liked each other nd all that cos she often refered to me as a sisi,game freak nd a book boy(wat nonsense).....truly i neva liked girls bac then nd i just saw her like a normal person.we did the frnd thingy for a while buh often ended as fussin nd fightin(omg......cant bliv i was like that som yrs bac).didnt see her for a while cos i was away in no man's land.......nd anytime i got bac she was away too.Buh as fate would av it we met after a while.she was looking all grown up nd preety(like she's bin preety all this while ,i was just too blind to hav noticed).Now i liked her nd i wanted us to be close frnds...not even frnds.Buh shortly after she said she was gonna be away again.........truly i was sad buh was glad to hear she was gonna be bac soon.i was always a constant companion....nd i talked to her on the fone all the time.Soon enuf she was bac nd i was always knocking on her door.we became really cool frnds nd always hung out.it really went on and on nd emotions came in.Soon we became lovers......nd the bond just got stronger.MEHN......AM NOT WRITING A POEM,THIS IS FOR REAL.she was always ther nd was the most lovin person i had ever known,we had fun nd we neva wanted this union to come off short.A time to be apart came again nd now she was gone......i tot she was gonna be bac buh this time she was gone for real.

Now am trying so hard,so sad when love dies and you wonder if you could av prevented it.slipping through your fingerprints nd love's left me cold.bewildered and alone and no hearts home.my loves already gone nd i just keep hoping it rises again.nd i just keep floating this stupid impossible pictures.am just trying to end the useless questions of when and why,and i still think shes here buh not wit me....nd somtimes shes really kind to me buh it all seems wasted like it doesnt touch my heart,somtin has died.am nt sure if its just now or forever.i could just tell her am sorry nd stufs nd take all the guilt buh to be honest the only thing am sorry about is all the time we wasted(i swear....am gonna be angerd all the time.....only if we make up.nd dats just almost imposible).since we seperated av just bin me,nd av bin learning to love myself.nd wat hurts me most is i just stay some nights,thinkin of her,nd how the love was new,the sound of her voice,the touch of her hand,the hours we spent,makin plans(often told each other we wer gonna get mrried),all the making outs nd how we wer really close to each other.I always heard that love is blind buh its deaf nd dumb too cos if i had seen nd known this was how its gonna end...maybe i ld neva av goten into this.i think this love just sucks now.she even did some checks on me buh now,no conversations nd it shouldnt take a mystic revelation for me to understand it just meant to be this way.MEHN CANT BLIV AM WRITIN ALL THIS STUFS.and am just writin this for her.....hope she reads.i know its not bin good for long time now,it doesnt get any beta.no mata how we both try hard,we just argue and disagree.You want ur way nd duh! i want mine.wer living seperate lives,wer not in deep kinda love.so lets just be frnds,our love mite still work in the future.but u mean too much to turn my back nd walk away.our lives can still touch in a friendly sort of way.i can promise to be ther if u ever need a friend buh i cant promise if its eva gonna be more than that.BFF
.

this is the realest stuf i ever thought in my mind.......nd am so tellin her.midnite write ups.

Becks.......................PART TIME YANK

Really...notins bin happenin.Have just bin on code sleep,eat,fifa09(am too old for it,i know),internet and more sleep.I decided to take a break on monday,cos av bin in my room for quite a while doin my normal randy stufs.Then i try to see wats on tv,and am like wtf.......this guy as lost his cool.A replay video of a soccer match that took place some days back.........this guy isranting at his angry boo-ing fans.I tell myself wat has come ova Becks and his followers. Am a David beckams fan..............the paparazzi,loads of cash,tv adds,fashion,never ceasing hairstyles and all that (common..who wouldnt want to be like him).this guy makes lots of money just for chasing a round leather ball for ninety minutes.moving from one big club to another(real madrid and manchester).And the guy is the most popular soccer player.ok....enuf of all this stale jist,cos proly eryone knows.Becks makes so much money nd starts feeling like the new messiah.He leaves europe and heads for america where MLB,NBA,MLB were the major sports.he arrives in the MLS and he promises the press heaven and hell(boasting he his gonna make soccer a popular sport in america)..................
Fine,most games wher sold out cos all the hot chics,gay guys wanted to hav a feel of him so they went in numbers to cheer becks.even grannies went to the games to see becks before they die(is this true?..lmao) nways he scores couple of signature freekicks,sells millions of soccer jerseys for galaxy,victoria gets more attention from the paparazzi,fashion shows nd more hairstyles buh doesnt really hav impact on how the game was viewed.Bball,american football,baseball still got all the ish.then he tries to run away from america after takin ther millions,he gets a loan deal to italy and doesnt want to come back.Stays in italy for a little longer....misses half of the season in mls(meanwhile his still gonna get paid).He gets back nd the fans are angry at him on his first game.He feels insulted..and takes the fight to the fans at half time.One of the fans rants at him and he tells him to come.Trust all this gangsters...the guy walks down and beckam tries to jump over the advert board.then the stewards and few players(am sure most of the players ar beefin on him) holds him back nd he walks unconcerned into the dressing room.

Emmmm,what am i tryin to peg on...........beckams a fraudster who needs to be probed by an american EFCC (am sure they hav one).He takes ther millions and tries to dump them cos he feels the soccer in america is not competitive nd all.They shoulda proly given him a boxing bout with the angry fan......nd lets see wat happens.Whats he teachin his son who was watchin from the stance or his wife(dont really like her though) nd i pity Tom cruise(controversial couch jumper) who went to see the game........all this celebs just think they can eat their cakes nd have it.Enuf of all the Beckam ish.....................i know most of you reading ar like whats the fools business wit becks nd all.Buh boy just speakin dem mind.

THIS ONES FOR YOU

Tinkering with those keys

Fingering through the gadjet

You lived to be outside

Under that blue sky

Never a minute was wasted

You found plenty to teach me

YOU said 'life is wat u make of it'

Your lessons always cherished

Things you said can never be replaced

Some so funny,You had to laugh

We lived to see what you do next

What a man,this man of mine

Just one last touch holding your hand

Hearing your voice we do crave

But now your gone no more to see

But i will just bet

In heaven on that piano

He can be found

This ones for u man ..........ma piano teacher who got shot and killed. sighhh.....RIP

If it wasnt for them

Emmm,this had bin a long time coming.nd i felt i just had to blog this thingy in appreciation to my friends i think i owe a lot (thanks to John wu introduced me to blogger).If it wasnt for them i dunno want woulda happened to me or wat i woulda turn out to be due to my failure.

I was moms favourite(she liked my sista too) in high school with all the brains and stuffs.Was really studious nd all nd only wanted notin buh to study nd outshine the other guys in class.It was really loads of competion nd i was always a major competitor,buh i always enjoyed it though.Holidays wer sad times cos ther was nobody to compete wit nd we wer(all the other brainy guys) looked forward for resumption).This went on nd on,nd life couldnt av bin more pleasurable.The world seemed like a lovely place to be in cos everytin was just right for me(my parents wer not rich....am talking bout my edu life).High school life was just interesting (dats all av bin tryin to narrate).Got admission into uni through dip.Dis was when all my problems started, realy loved marine stufs(yh my dad was into marine too).Medicine was wat i was doin in dip nd i really did messed up.it wasnt cos i lost my touch............it was just because i got into a group of bad friends who only saw the fun part of life nd never talked about serious stufs.Didnt even know why i was doing medicine.............Reading was not just d inn thing nd i had to do the dip proggrame again.

If it wasnt for these guys would have bin with the pain of failure and rejections by those who couldnt believe wat i had turned out to be.Lemme start wit Shxxx...........this guys just like me buh he was really there for me when i needed him the most.Told me to move on nd dat wasnt the end of life.really liked his slow attitude nd the way we just got along.If it wasnt for johnny who woulda bin ther to nag u nd laff at u for ur misfortunes for failin your course. Really learnt a lot from him nd d friendly words he gave me,was always wantin to know how i was fairing nd was always quick to remind me i was a bloody repeater.If it wasnt for biola giwa who would i av looked up to for intelligence nd composure(i even tagged her miss composure.Really learnt a lot from nosa.......clubbin without brains was just stupid.if it wasnt for nosa who gave lenghty talks nd advises nd how dissapointed he was at me......always tellin me to read.if it wasnt for tayo who helped me out in virtually everything....nd made me realise the worth of friendship.If it wasnt for dee who was like a mom nd was always worried about how i coped.......if it wasnt for jessy who was always doin routine check on how life was in dip.if it wasnt for teezy nd Yumybee.if it wasnt for scala who was a pain in the neck.If it wasnt bee who showed her love nd care........................

The list goes on...............cant just remeber some ppl now.If it wasnt for all this guys(people i call friends),really dont know how i woulda survived.JUst thanking ya'll i mentioned................I really appreciate you guys.LOL http://ifitwasntforthem.blog.com